Yay more problems have arisen so i have to clear my mind of it on here. So prepare for a wall of text that is incoming. Anyways i have evaluated the situation i am in currently and i figured out this situation is probably not worth it as much as i invested into it. Most of you don’t really know my personality that much but the way i am i like to argue and cause arguments. People that know me know i truly don’t seriously argue with people i just do it for fun and either they let me win or I win it myself is to be determined i have never asked if they let me win. We rewind the time about a week or 2, i meet this fantastic girl that is in my computer science class. I thought she was really pretty so i decided i wanted to get to know her more. So I do that through messaging her and talking to her in person and getting to know her friends as well. IT turns out i start to develop emotions for her,which i know is bad since i don’t know this person that long or very well. Then April fools come everything is going really well until then i think i made a lot of progress with her and this is when i get to comfortable and revert back to the personality i usually am where i argue for fun and just mess around. It turned April fools and i figured out that a lot of people change their relationship status on Facebook to something that isn’t true. I was i wanna do this for once and didn’t want to do it by myself so i asked her if she would do this with me and i wouldn’t even leave it up for long. Say says no but the way i am i continue to argue and still don’t win. I am like whatever and she goes to sleep. I change mine anyways and put a request for her to change hers anyways. Keep in mind that when that happens it only shows that you changed your relationship status and it doesn’t say who it is you are with. I receive a text saying you are a butt and i think oh she is awake i should go tell her to go back to sleep and i will change it back. So i tell her to go back to sleep and i change it back to single. She appears to still be awake an hour later, me being the playful self which i shouldn’t be tell her go back to sleep or else i change it back. I think okay she doesn’t want me to change it so she will just go back to sleep and things will go on in the morning. Man was i wrong she apparently stayed up until 4 just thinking and i was able to sleep peacefully.  In the morning i send my good morning text and i feel sorry for messing around and i say sorry i was being a butt. I admitted i was probably being mean even though i didn’t see it that way.  I go watch fall of Olympus with the family that morning and it was a pretty good movie, I thought it was going to be a mythological movie turned out to be a movie about the white house and north Koreans invading it. Anyways back to the point after i get out i turn on my phone and receive this huge text of her blowing up on me. I was like woah what did i do so bad that this would happen to me. I re look over my messages on Skype and things seem normal i didn’t say anything i wouldn’t say to a normal friend. So I sincerely apologized for my action and realized that my actions probably were a little over the line for a person i just met a few weeks ago and would stray away from that way of acting because apparently it was really bad. We later on make up and this is where it gets good. I explicitly remember her saying to me my actions were not that bad where i would lose her as a friend. HA chuck testa she is ignoring me now and we apparently are not friends anymore. Whatever i did was really really bad due to the fact her friends say she doesnt usually get mad and rant to her friends about me. There are many other things i would like to say but that would put me on a level i do not want to be in.

TL;DR I met a girl, started to like her, got in an argument over a facebook conversation, made up, was ignored, back to strangers

I have started to watch the korean drama Full house and i really have connected with the characters in the drama. How Rain has his best friend that is practically part of the family but can not tell her how he feels about her because he loves her too much and cant afford ever losing her so he deals with the pain of them not being together for the sake of having her still in his life. To Han Eun-jeong’s character who loves Min-hyuk but can not get him because he sees her as a sister and not a person that he can love romantically. And there is Min-hyuk the guy who is loved but when he wants to love someone he is left alone because the one he wants is taken already and he cant fall back on anyone because his family is all busy and the one other girl has moved on from him. All these characters i have felt i been in these situations before and I know that is what a drama is supposed to do connect you with the characters and feel what they are feeling. I found this part most connecting it was when Min-hyuk was talking to Ji-eun how he hates the phrase what if but he keeps on thinking about what if… ever since he meets her. This part really struck me because i been living a what if live with this girl i known since freshman year. What if i met her in high school and she didnt have to go through that nasty relationship that caused her to go into depression and just drink starbucks bottled frappuccino basically by the liters just to keep herself happy. What if I met her and she was with me instead of with the ex that now goes to UCLA where he always used her for her money and car. What if I asked her out before she got into a relationship with another person in ROTC and her chinese class and was depressed after they broke up as well. Now what is stopping me, she is single, we dont talk as often as we used to but what is stopping me from having my chance. All I want and what min-hyuk wanted was a chance with Ji-eun and I will hopefully get my chance and it goes well and if not i can just let her go and free myself from the burden of liking someone and them not liking me back.

Well end of my rant good bye and have a good day